Diaries of a Borderline: Ep. 3

I'm finally back. I don't know how long I'll be back until I fall into another depressive slump/state/episode. But I'm here at the moment, and that's what matters. I'm still stuck in another country. Very fun, I know. I miss my life. But I know being here is for the best. I really needed the therapy, medications, and treatment I'm getting. I don't think I would've still been here if this didn't happen. It still drives me insane that I can't see the love of my life. It's been months. It physically hurts me. But I'm stuck. I have no choice. But whatever. I shouldn't worry because it's not like I can do anything about it. I was experiencing euphoria earlier today, but it's starting to dull down. Maybe I can salvage it. At the very least, I got the energy to finally post something on the blog. Maybe life isn't so awful. 


Edit: This was written on the 11th. I am much better now, though most of this still applies. Anyway, stay tuned for another post. 

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