Diaries of a Borderline: Ep. 1
Life has been so rough lately. I know I'm strong, but sometime that strength will weaken. At some point, I'm going to come crashing down. It feels like that day could be tomorrow or today even. So many things happen and it feels like at any moment it could be too much for me. It almost was. It almost was too much. I wish I hadn't gone to the balcony. I wish I just stayed in bed and fell asleep. That stupid attempt caused more problems than I thought it would solve. It hurt me, and it hurt those around me. I'm tired of these things. I don't wanna be like this. As much as I find comfort in these awful states, I also wish I could be ok. Just normal. I know I'll never actually be normal- stupid BPD is always going to be with me- but I want the closest thing to that. I have plenty of people trying to help me, but none of it is going to work if my brain doesn't want to cooperate. I'm incredibly tired. I don't even know if I'll post this. I need to po...