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Diaries of a Borderline: Ep. 1

  Life has been so rough lately. I know I'm strong, but sometime that strength will weaken. At some point, I'm going to come crashing down. It feels like that day could be tomorrow or today even. So many things happen and it feels like at any moment it could be too much for me. It almost was. It almost was too much. I wish I hadn't gone to the balcony. I wish I just stayed in bed and fell asleep. That stupid attempt caused more problems than I thought it would solve. It hurt me, and it hurt those around me. I'm tired of these things. I don't wanna be like this. As much as I find comfort in these awful states, I also wish I could be ok. Just normal. I know I'll never actually be normal- stupid BPD is always going to be with me- but I want the closest thing to that. I have plenty of people trying to help me, but none of it is going to work if my brain doesn't want to cooperate. I'm incredibly tired. I don't even know if I'll post this. I need to po...

Childhood Trauma & BPD

  Hey there, baddies! It's been a minute since I've posted anything so we're going to take it easy. My mental health hasn't been the best lately and I've been incredibly unmotivated. However, I am forcing myself to take all the (very little) energy I have to write something new. Today, I'm going to be talking about childhood trauma and it's role in the development of BPD in a person.  BPD is initially a gene in a person. This gene is "activated" by traumatic events. Most of these traumatic events happen during childhood and adolescence. Many borderlines experience traumatic events like sexual and physical abuse, extreme neglect, or seperation from parents or loved ones. Trauma triggers the BPD gene, which causes you to start developing the symptoms of BPD. We already went over the symptoms of BPD, but in case you forgot, some major symptoms are: - unstable relationships - impulsivity - self-harm - unsafe or risky behavior - mood swings - emotional ...

Different Treatments for BPD

  Hellooo, baddies! This article is going to be about some of the different treatments and therapies used to treat patients with BPD. There are multiple different treatments that can be used to help patients with BPD. These treatments may not work for everyone, though they do help a majority of people.  There are many different treatments for people with BPD, including medication. To start off, there is no medication specifically for BPD, so your doctor may prescribe a combinaton of medications that will work together to help you manage your BPD symptoms. These medications may be antidepressants, mood stabilizers, or antipsychotics.  Many of the therapies used to manage BPD fall under the umbrella of psychotherapy. Psychotherapy, which is also referred to as talk therapy, is used to help individuals manage and change maladaptive behaviors, thoughts, and emotions. The types of psychotherapy that are used to treat BPD are: - Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT) - Mentalizatio...

BPD in Men VS Women

  Hellooo there, baddies! In this article, we're going to identify the differences between men with BPD versus women with BPD. Men and women with BPD may experience similar symptoms, but there are a couple major differences.  To start off, we should understand the fact that around 75% of BPD patients or women. This does not mean that as a man, you cannot have BPD. It is very much possible. However, when someone talks about symptoms of BPD, they may talk about symptoms that are mostly common in women. Therefore, a man with (undiagnosed) BPD may think he doesn't have BPD at all, which leads to confusion.  Symptoms of BPD in women, which are the symptoms we know very well, may include: - intense, unstable relationship - extreme fear of abandonment  - risky and impulsive behaviors - identity confusion/crisis - dissociation  - unstable emotions - eating disorders or symptoms of eating disorders - increased severity of PMS symptoms before and during menstruation As fo...

Eating Disorders: A Brief Overview

  Hi hi hi, baddies! In this article, I'm going to be telling you all about eating disorders (EDs). An eating disorder is a mental condition that causes a disturbance in eating behavior and impairment of physical and mental health. There are many kinds of eating disorders. The most well-known known ED is anorexia nervosa (AN), although the most common ED is binge eating disorder (BED).  Three most common EDs are: - anorexia nervosa (AN) - bulimia nervosa (BN) - binge eating disorder (BED) There are many kinds of eating disorders, but we'll focus on these three.  To start off, anorexia nervosa is an eating disorder categorized by an intense fear of gaining weight and distorted body image, leading to food restriction and significant and extreme weight loss. There are to kinds of anorexia: restricting type and binge eating and purging type (AN-R AND AN-BP). AN-R is when one loses weight via diets and/or excessive and extreme exercise. AN-BP is when one engages in binge eatin...

EDs & BPD

  Hey there, baddies! Today we're discussing EDs and BPD and their connection. To start off what does ED stand for? ED means eating disorder, a term I'm sure you're familiar with. And BPD is, obviously, borderline personality disorder. But what connects these disorders? First of all, there are many types of eating disorders such as anorexia nervosa, bulimia nervosa, and others. With BPD, the most common ED symptoms are binging and purging, two major symptoms of bulimia nervosa. Having BPD means having a higher chance of developing an eating disorder. About 54% of patients with BPD also meet the criteria for an eating disorder. BPD is present in about 25% of those with anorexia and 28% of people with bulimia. The criteria used to diagnose BPD parallels symptoms of EDs. It is very difficult to treat an ED with BPD if the BPD is not being treated, and vice versa. This does not just apply to BPD; this also applies to any co-occuring disorder. EDs and BPD intertwine, so it can b...

BPD During Your Menstrual Cycle

  Hiya, baddies! Today, I'm going to be talking about what happens and goes through the mind of a borderline during their menstrual cycle and when they have their period. As we know, periods make our hormones a little off, and with BPD, that's an even bigger mess. But let's get into it a little deeper.  To start off, let's do a quick overview of the menstrual cycle in general. The menstrual cycle consists of four phases: menstrual phase, follicular phase, ovulation, and the luteal phase. Before and during menses, our emotions are unstable because of our hormones changing. So imagine what it's like to have already unstable emotions plus BPD? BPD is all about emotions, so it is perfectly normal and very likely for you to have a BPD meltdown before and during your period. Another thing that you may experience during your menstrual phase is increased suicidal and harmful thoughts that may even lead to actions. The symptoms of BPD are extremely exacerbated before and dur...